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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v4

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Oh, nevermind.. I talked to my parents and we decided I'm gonna start taking Trintellix again. I'd rather be speechless and with Parkinson's than suicidal. At least I'm not going to suffer from now on.
 
Decided swimming is my new thing. Still dropping invega weight but I think after being in bed so much swimming just feels amazing. Moving my muscles is like therapy. In a sad note went with my dad today on a 5 hour trip to look at horses. The e tire 5 hours I could only respond with one word answers. I know he sees me different now. Like man she's ducked up.
 
just drank 1 litre of 5% alcohol today and it had no effect, im 19 days since the invega shot. i guess i got some time to go until alcohol works again. adderall seems to work just fine though which im thankful for. left me a bit depressed that i cant feel alcohol. ive heard users say 4 months off they were drunk asf so it might not take that much time after all who knows. anyone got any insight?
 
Hey, i just reached the 5 month mark.
I can tell, feel more intelligent again.
I gained a little more weight during the last 2 months, maybe 4 kg? Because of the dopamine rushes, that i caused by too many carbohydrates. I guess it my way to force my body to feel dopamine.
I can enjoy listening to music again.
I slowly gain back interest in old things, that i was interested before.
I can find women attractive again and my libido is going up steady.
I feel more motivated.
It is a slow recovery but i am on my way i guess.
I hope i do recover fully within a month, cause i feel it is not much that far away from now on.
 
How many shots did you have?
 
I guess some would be worse than others, like the older first generation antipsychotics like Haldol (as you mentioned). I honestly don't know. I would never try another one since I don't have Bipolar or Schizophrenia. Possibly Geodon? I haven't heard godawful things about it, but haven't heard good things either!~!!
Yeah idk either. Just the ones I've been on. But thanks for your input.
 
just drank 1 litre of 5% alcohol today and it had no effect, im 19 days since the invega shot. i guess i got some time to go until alcohol works again. adderall seems to work just fine though which im thankful for. left me a bit depressed that i cant feel alcohol. ive heard users say 4 months off they were drunk asf so it might not take that much time after all who knows. anyone got any insight?
I'm 6th months off rn and after 4-5 months I could get a good buzz off 8% beer again. I only felt how I feel now just once while on invega but didn't feel shit after till the 4th-5th month mark of being off. got off may 1st. But I can get a good buzz now and I do start to slur alot and get uncordinated after I drink too much but it's not like i'm actually drunk. There's not a lot of dopamine either. Just alittle. But it still boosts my mood a bit. Can get kinda high off Colorado dispensary weed too but the weed I get rn is just a bit of a chill buzz after taking a t-break for a few days once every couple or few days of smoking. It's all coming back. Just patiently waiting for it to come back completely. Never seen someone really exceed 12 months of not getting high or drunk unless they got a boatload of injections.
Said all this in the previous thread though.
 
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I'm 6th months off rn and after 4-5 months I could get a good buzz off 8% beer again. I only felt how I feel now just once while on invega but didn't feel shit after till the 4th-5th month mark of being off. got off may 1st. But I can get a good buzz now and I do start to slur alot and get uncordinated after I drink too much but it's not like i'm actually drunk. There's not a lot of dopamine either. Just alittle. But it still boosts my mood a bit. Can get kinda high off Colorado dispensary weed too but the weed I get rn is just a bit of a chill buzz after taking a t-break for a few days once every couple or few days of smoking. It's all coming back. Just patiently waiting for it to come back completely. Never seen someone really exceed 12 months of not getting high or drunk unless they got a boatload of injections.
Said all this in the previous thread though.

I’m 10 and a half months off and I still can’t feel alcohol at all. I only had the initial two shots, so it’s really strange that it’s taking so long for me. I don’t even get the slightest buzz. I don’t slur my words, become uncoordinated, feel a dopamine rush, nothing. Even if I drink a whole 12 pack in one night, nothing happens. A few weeks back I went to a bar and had like 4 shots, two margaritas, and three beers, still nothing. It’s literally like drinking water. I expected by now I could at least get a small buzz, then over time it would get better. But I feel nothing at all. This shit is like a curse, feels like it’ll never end.

I can feel weed, but it’s not pre invega yet. I don’t get the euphoria where you get all goofy and can't stop laughing, you get imaginative and creative, get the munchies, etc. All that happens is I get a body high that makes me feel kinda relaxed, so I usually just smoke before bed. No dopamine rush.

Overall, I feel slightly better than I did a few months ago. Even at 7-9 months, I would still feel like I was being tortured 24/7 from the lack of dopamine and I had a lot of bad, constant suicidal thoughts. Lately, I haven’t been feeling suicidal anymore, mainly just dull, bored, and anhedonic. But I’m able to get into TV shows/movies more, and I‘ve been gaming a lot and getting kinda into it.

My last shot was January 5th. So I’ve literally spent the entire year of 2020 dealing with this. A year of my life completely wasted. I’m hoping that by Christmas I’ll be healed. That would be the greatest gift I could ever ask for.
 
Also, is there a way a mod can add a link to this thread at the end of the last one? I spent a week refreshing the last thread and seeing no replies before I realized it had been closed. Then I was worried the discussion had been closed down for good, but luckily I looked around and found this thread. There are probably other people wondering what’s going on, a lot of people from the last thread haven’t posted here yet.
 
Sorry ur on this boat man. If you smoke a Whole bowl of american spirit black tobacco through a bong u can get a intense head rush but itll only work once a day but its a horrible habit i finally quit. Cigerettes have no effect on me
 
So this is it....V4 on the recovery now. I used to post here a long time ago. Let me give everyone an update. I recieved one injection of Invega Sustenna 234 mg on 2-9-2018. I developed NMS (Neuroleptic Malignant Syndrome). I was running a fever, I had to be put on testosterone replacement therapy, I had muscle problems (ridgity), I suffered complete anhedonia. I had to be placed on intensive immediate therapy which included Amphetamines. I finally came off the amphetamines a month ago and my testosterone levels are back to normal. Let me tell you about Hell. One shot of this stuff will do you in to a degree. It will get better, I promise, but you should expect a certain degree of permanent anhedonia. I don't feel as creative as I used to be and I certainly have trouble doing activities I used to love (like reading). I can't read and enjoy it anymore. I still don't feel like I have access to a once huge vocabulary. So 2.75 years after the one shot and still a long way to go on recovery. My situation was unique in that my reaction was more adverse than the standard I feel like I want to die reaction. I wish everyone the best in their recovery. Don't give up hope, but don't expect to get every single little thing you lose back either. Try to be realistic. You have been injected with Cyanide, my friends.
This is hard to read man things are so freaking boring with ahedonia and it just feels like im getting used to it not getting better
 
Oh, nevermind.. I talked to my parents and we decided I'm gonna start taking Trintellix again. I'd rather be speechless and with Parkinson's than suicidal. At least I'm not going to suffer from now on.
I can't wait for you to get better and no longer have to deal with side effects, man.
 
Im really sorry about my behavior, i always get too high when i get my hustle on then i may be stupid but i stop it now.
 
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