Welcome to comingofflais.com. I am the founder of this community. This post explains who I am, why I created COLAIAs, and what we hope to achieve.
My Story
My experience with psychiatry began in childhood. From around age 7 or 9, I was prescribed SSRIs for over a decade. The reasons are complex and rooted in family dynamics, but the impact on my life has been profound.
The drugs made academic and personal growth an immense struggle. In elementary school I still managed at first. In middle school, daily migraines and stunted growth created severe problems, and my GPA suffered. It took years to overcome this. In college I regained focus and achieved nearly a 4.0 GPA across 20 classes in two years, proving my capability despite the chemical straightjacket SSRIs put on my brain. But a physical injury from an assault led to another round of aggressive psychiatric drugging.
After 10.5 years on SSRIs, I began experiencing terrifying physical symptoms: lightheadedness, blue fingernails, heart flutters, severe shortness of breath. During one critical episode I couldn’t breathe and my vision went white. When I sought emergency help, my family attributed it to mental distress, and I was taken to a psychiatric ward. There I was forcibly injected with what a nurse thought was ketamine, and later with Invega Sustenna against my will. Over three months I endured two hospitalizations and was given powerful psychiatric drugs without explanation. I was discharged with a diagnosis of “schizophrenia”—a label given, it seemed, simply because I insisted my physical symptoms were real.
Over the next five years I rejected this diagnosis. I watched the term “schizophrenia” get applied to people experiencing drug addiction or the effects of the very medications they were prescribed. I tried to speak out and expose the fraud. My family and a society quick to accept psychiatric dogma blocked my efforts. As control, I was given approximately 20 long-acting injectable antipsychotics, including Invega Sustenna, Abilify Aristada, and Zyprexa Relprevv. I realized if I didn’t act, this cycle would never end. I reached a point where I felt I had no options left, I decided to take action, ending that cycle. Now instead of causing harm, I chose to build something that fights back differently.
The physical toll was devastating. I could barely sit at a computer or walk on a treadmill without severe abdominal pain. I dropped out of college. I taught myself to program, hoping to regain control. I made some health progress, but the effects after 10 years from forced LAI injections are lingering and likely permanent. I continue anyway.
Why I Created COLAIAs
For years I watched others get victimized by psychiatry, particularly by long-acting injections with devastating, long-lasting effects. I saw:
Support groups on Facebook and Discord shut down.
Continuous suicides with no awareness.
Online forums flooded with inauthentic positive reviews.
Critical discussions disappearing from search results.
In places where there was some discussion, I saw moderators quick to shut down anyone who vented out. These were obvious platforms of control.
At first I was frustrated with the community, wondering why no one organized a real response. But the problem was more insidious than lack of initiative. Information was being deliberately hidden.
Continuing…
The Reality of Censorship and Control
This website exists because the truth is suppressed. My goal was to provide a legitimate space for open discussion. Yet from the beginning it has faced an invisible wall.
This is not an accident. Google’s E-E-A-T search algorithms bury websites discussing harms of psychiatric LAIs. In September 2025, “Invega Sustenna” had nearly 30,000 searches. Instead of leading people to real experiences, Google fills results with sanitized corporate pages from WebMD and pharmaceutical companies. The same happened to bluelight.org—their “Coming Off Invega” threads were erased from search visibility.
When I’ve tried sharing this community elsewhere, my links were marked as spam and removed by moderators on Reddit, schizophrenia.org, and elsewhere. Even bluelight.org.
On these platforms narrative control is enforced through coordinated inauthentic behavior:
False promotion of psychiatric drugs as safe
Minimization of severe, permanent side effects
Fabricated positive experiences
Misattributing drug-induced damage to pre-existing conditions
Pseudoscientific justifications using debunked theories
System apologetics portraying psychiatry as well-meaning
Aggressive intimidation to force compliance
Misattribution of death by encouraging drug switches
Upon recognizing this pattern, I built a custom LLM-based moderation system for this site to identify and neutralize these manipulative tactics automatically. It took five months to develop. I sell the premium version of my plugin “Premium LLM Moderator for wpForo” through this site, accepting only cryptocurrency due to political implications.
The Goals of COLAIAs
We need a place to organize and have truthful discussion. We need to hold psychiatry accountable. To gather and document sources. To fight back and get reparations. There is no data tracking here for any purpose. I want this community to have privacy and peace of mind—a place for open discussion and actual solutions.
Help Wanted
I cannot do this alone. I need people who can help promote this website—through word-of-mouth, sharing on platforms that still allow it, or using tools you already have. I need people to share their stories here and contribute to our archive of sources. Every post creates more content. More content means more pages. More pages means more indices in search engines. That makes us harder to bury.
There are ways to fight back against the shadow banning. Some I’ll develop when I can. Others already exist if you know where to look. For now, the most important thing is building the archive and getting word of this forum out to people. The truth is being deliberately hidden in plain sight. Together we make it known.
P.S.
The icon is based off three images. The chemical weapon symptom atop the toxic hazard symbol atop a bio hazard symbol. This reflects what I think about psychiatric LAIs, that these are curse-like poisons. Bio-chemical weapon masqueraded as a medicine. They can’t get it this wrong by mistake. It is deliberate. Some troll might suggest this is a hidden eugenics scheme or make some other excuse when it comes forward. I disagree, this is “Warfare by Deception”.
